I went there today. I got scared and left.

Should i be more scared for him ? 

I wish i could help him with life. But it seems like he wants no help.

It seem's like he like's it there. Just like in jail...he said it was a good experience.

At least he's positive...right ?

I still feel like it's my fault, like i made him that way, that i created his monster for him.

I guess i should look at this positively, at least he's somewhat safe.

Watching shows on tv about celebrity skinniness is really awkward, really....we actually don't give a fuck about these stupid people.

Last night was good though, it was pretty funny. silly gooses.

I have harvey's and i'm excited to eat it.

See ya on the flip siiide.

i'm now titling my posts.

Last night, was a ridiculous, fun-filled night, with drunken slurs, a lot of driving, a lot of cigarettes, meeting new people, and fun, as i said.

Dayn had a drink-off with my mom, she won.

Matt jessome has a new wifey.

I still don't have a boyfriend and am still bummed out by last week's events.

Niagara falls seemed a little more crowded due to the nice weather, which i'm excited about.

Dayn's new girly is the best person alive, as is matt's. I love them both to pieces.

Dayn and i strolled home at 2:30, only to find my dad, munchin out on wheatabix, playing with army men. 

He was chewed....haha oh dad.

This weekend was really good, I met a lot of people, experienced some awesome new things and again, was DD....

Time flies when your havin fun. (Y).

"Some people show off they're beauty, for the whole world to see. Others, hide they're beauty hoping people will see something else"

Wow, I'm so disappointed in last night.

It was NOT what i thought it would be.

Actually just a waste of my time.

I wish dayn was there so at least I could have not stood alone for a while.

Ugh. 

Today's a happy day.

Got my lisence back til June 3rd. 

Which means, I can finish school.

I won't be crying as often

I'll still have a life.

AND hot flashes is tonight.

Everything is hunky-dory.

I am beyond stoked.

I feel like absolute garbage. 

Really, absolute garbage

I want everything to be normal again.

Where i have a job, good friends, my lisence, that boy, and not a care in the world.

Why is march depressing ?

Reason's i should just die right now.

-my lisence is suspended for 60 days as of march 31st

-this means i won't be finishing school

-this means i won't be going anywhere

-this means i'm going to cry alot more

-this means my life fucking sucks right now.

I am so fucking sick and tired of school, i just want it to be over, so i can find a god damned job.

Gather enough money to get the FUCK out of this drug reliant town. I hate grimsby with a god damned passion.

First of all, there are absolutely NO jobs, and when there are ? they hire like 90 year olds that really DON'T need a job but because they can work full days. PISS OFF

I'm actually so upset, I have actually applied everywhere 4000000 times. and not one call, not one close call. FUCK grimsby. I fucking hate this town and everyone in it. 

I want a boy who will move far away with me, that doesn't give a shit about my mood swings, my bad habits or my eating patterns. I want to live far away and be happy and have a cute apartment.

But keep dreamin' right ?

Oh, and on my way to school, i would have to hit a fucking rabbit, i cried.

Then i get to school and forget to put milk in my fucking tea. 

Today can't actually get any worse. I haven't been to school in mayyybe, 2 weeks. I have exams soon i think. Like i don't even know when anything is. 

There's only one thing/person on my mind, and it's really starting to make me go crazy.

Fuck this. I'm fucking pissed.